Umbrella

Go away 

Come again another day 

I know you will 

It’s not like this everyday.  In fact it hasn’t been like this in a while.  I wrote this post almost a month ago.  Sometimes I let them just sit until I am brave enough to push publish.  But today it was like this, again.

Just a Dull. Ache.

Today was one of those days.

I pull away.  Say little and I interact little.
I throw myself into work.  Full Speed Ahead.

And today I listened over and over to Christian music  – I pour it into my ears hoping it will go deep into my heart.

I hook up an IV of His Word and I speak it, say it, believe it, and try to memorize it.  Please sink in.

Yet, I still ache.
Disconnected.

But, tomorrow is a new day.

New Mercies.

The umbrella that covers me and protects me is my Lord.
His promises and His truths hold me close.

Even when I ache, and especially when I ache.

Looking back – He has always been there.
The Umbrella didn’t stop the rain.
The Umbrella didn’t prevent the storm.

The Umbrella covered me while in darkness.
Stayed by my side.
Not alone.
Not ever.

And tomorrow is a new day.
Sunshine.

Maybe I will publish.  Maybe not.

The song YOU ARE by Colton Dixon played a few times today – LOUD.

Very Loud.

Lamentations 3:20-25 (NIV) 
I will remember then, and my soul is downcast with me.  Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope.  Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail.  They are new every morning;  great is your Faithfulness.  I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.”  The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him.  

So between that song, that verse, and some Zumba… the rain is slowing down.

And tomorrow – sunshine.