I’m so excited to get away and meet with you. The car can’t go fast enough as my heart is pounding in expectation. I sing to you to pass the time – do you hear me? Then it is quiet again. Overwhelmed, I feel the tears well up and spill over into my lap. My lips are puffy and my eyes are smeared. I am in sweatpants and I wonder… maybe I should have dressed a little nicer? But you never seem to notice what I am wearing, the style or the brand. You notice my heart, my mind, and my soul. I am safe in sweatpants with you. I can relax, be comfortable and just breathe. You won’t even see the Clorox splatter at the bottom, as you will be examining the spots in my heart in need of your tender care.
Only a few more songs and I am there. I’m so anxious to see you, and to find you in every moment. No distractions. No noise.
Help me Lord to find you.
Help me Lord to hear you.
Help me Lord to see you.
Help me Lord to know you.
Take my hand and guide me to your quiet spot where treasure abounds. Fill me Lord to overflow with your grace, mercy and love.
It’s here that I find you with arms wide open and beauty shining bright. I start to whisper in your ear and you nod your head in agreement. Yes, you were in the car with me. You heard me singing. You were in the mess with me. You carried me in your arms. You were in the chaos with me. You were my shield.
You have never left my side.
It’s here that I find you and see you because I pause the distractions, and quiet the confusion… just to be held.
Remind me Lord daily to eagerly anticipate you like this! You are always there, waiting. You are full of everlasting LOVE. May I always look forward to our time together just as I have this day, when all was set aside for you my King, in all of your glory.
Going through the motions doesn’t please you,
a flawless performance is nothing to you.
I learned God-worship
when my pride was shattered.
Heart-shattered lives ready for love
don’t for a moment escape God’s notice.
Psalm 51:16-17 MSG