God, what is my purpose? What are you calling me to do?
When I have prayed and asked those questions, God has answered. I know in my heart what He is calling me to do, but I have no idea how to get there.
In fact, I feel stuck sometimes.
And the voices in my head can be so loud. “Are you sure He said??? How is it even possible? You???”
Doubt creeps in and I freeze.
I want to shrink back, hunker down. I look to the right and the left. I see others with far more skill and talent. I read a post or a tweet that makes me cringe in fear. The bubble of doubt grows bigger and I shrink back… smaller and smaller. I’m little again. I’m terrified.
The bubble of doubt finally pops when I get alone with Him and I pray and read His word. In the quiet, He reminds me that I am not alone. He is my helper. He makes me brave. I don’t have to be afraid or worry.
Don’t be impatient. Wait for the Lord, and he will come and save you! Be brave, stouthearted, and courageous. Yes, wait and he will help you. (Psalm 27:14 TLB)
Be brave, and wait.
As I wait, I remember to fill my mind with who He is. I focus on who I am in Him. I recall the many ways He has shown Himself faithful over and over. I didn’t have the answers then either, and He showed up every single time. I just have to keep my focus on Him and take the next brave step, even if it is a baby step on tiptoes.
God, how can I be sure it is you?
Recently, I stood in the shower crying as I prayed for God to show me what to do. I felt like He was leading me to take the next step. I said, “God I want to know it’s you, but how can I be sure? God, guide me and confirm what you are showing me. Let me know it is you. Please show me, Lord. I don’t want to get ahead of you. I don’t want to get behind you. Lord, please show me it’s you.”
That same evening I met with the ladies in our church to enjoy “paint nite with Bonnie Gray“. This activity was part of her Finding Spiritual Whitespace book club and we were going to learn to paint with watercolor. Before we painted, we dimmed the lights and listened as she read to us the passage in John 21. This was our time to quiet our souls before God – to find Spiritual Whitespace. She read slowly and asked us to close our eyes and imagine ourselves there with Jesus in the scene. What was he saying to us? What stood out to us in the passage? She read the passage three times, and each time I heard …. “JUMP”.
Then the disciple whom Jesus loved said to Peter, “It is the Lord!” As soon as Simon Peter heard him say, “It is the Lord,” he wrapped his outer garment around him (for he had taken it off) and jumped into the water. John 21:7 (NIV)
Jump. It is the Lord.
As soon as he knew it was the Lord, he jumped.
Live by faith.
Prayer: God, give me faith. I don’t want to shrink back. I don’t want to give up. I don’t want to be impatient. I don’t want to forge ahead plowing my own path. I simply want to trust you. Give me faith and fill me with Holy Confidence and teach me to rely on you. Help me to jump and not hesitate when you are calling me. Refresh me in the waiting, Lord and fill me with boldness, courage and patience. I am brave when I am moving at your pace and in your direction. Thank you for teaching me to trust you and for showing me your grace, love, and tender mercy along the way.
I am not shrinking back. Are you?
Let’s Be Brave together and claim this promise:
So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. For, “In just a little while, he who is coming will come and will not delay.” And, “But my righteous one will live by faith. And I take no pleasure in the one who shrinks back.” But we do not belong to those who shrink back and are destroyed, but to those who have faith and are saved. Hebrews 10:35-39 NIV
Linking up with Bonnie Gray: