Truth 10: You will not fear the terror of night.
The Lie: You will always be afraid.
I used to often dream that I was being chased. Whether I was in a dark stairwell, a parking garage or a building, I was always running and trying to get away. I would wake up with my heart pounding and it would take me a while to get back to sleep.
My nightmares were very vivid, and during those first few minutes of waking up it felt so real. I’d look around and convince myself that I was safe and it was just a bad dream. Again.
I was tired. I was afraid, and I felt so alone. Especially at night.
Psalm 91 gave me hope and brought me peace. I loved reading it in different translations like the Voice, The Message and the Amplified Bible. The promises of God’s protection made me feel safe. It was my go-to chapter when I had terrifying dreams. Sometimes just whispering or saying the first two verses in my head over and over would help:
I don’t dream about being chased anymore. I occasionally have bad dreams, but it is nothing like before, and I am able to recover much faster.
Stepping into the light and facing my demons in the daylight helped me to not have to fight them as much in the darkness of night.
I no longer fear the terror of night.
April is #SAAM (Sexual Assault Awareness Month) and for thirty days I will share the lies I believed and the truth that I discovered in my healing from childhood sexual abuse. To start at the beginning and read the first post click here —> 30 Days of Truth – I am a Masterpiece