Truth #13: I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.
The Lie: I can remember thinking as a child maybe God made me to be abused. Maybe He was okay with it? One of the ways I coped was living by the thought, “It could be worse.”
The enemy came to harm me.
The enemy intended to destroy me and his weapon was Childhood Sexual Abuse. It distorted my perception of God and myself. It filled me with lies, secrets, fear and shame. The parts of me that I kept hidden away affected all areas of my life. It kept me from being fully present in relationships, and it was hard for me to trust anyone. It kept me numb, both to pain and to joy. I was stuck in the darkness and suffered alone in silence.
And then there was light.
Jesus came to give me life with joy and abundance. His light and His truth exposed the lies of the enemy. One by one, the messy, painful secrets spilled out. As I opened up, His light was able to shine into the darkest places.
I didn’t have to hide anymore. I didn’t have to live in fear. I was able to be fully present in relationships and I learned to trust. I cried a lot, but I also stayed awake one night with a big smile on my face because I had experienced tremendous joy and I didn’t want it to end. I was moving forward, one step at a time. I was no longer alone.
I was being filled with His peace, mercy, grace and His love.
He came to give me life.
April is #SAAM (Sexual Assault Awareness Month) and for thirty days I will share the lies I believed and the truth that I discovered in my healing from childhood sexual abuse. To start at the beginning and read the first post click here —> 30 Days of Truth – I am a Masterpiece