Truth #15: “Talitha Koum!” (“Little girl, get up!”).
He took her by the hand and said to her, “Talitha koum!” (which means “Little girl, I say to you, get up!”). Mark 5:41 NIV
I put her away long ago and I closed the door tight. I didn’t want to see her again. She seemed content there in the darkness, and I didn’t want to remember.
So I tried to forget.
But, you can’t forget sexual abuse because it is not just a memory. It is full sensory overload in high-definition.
I thought of her sometimes when I felt shame, but I still kept that door closed.
One day my counselor said, “Maybe you can just open the door a little bit for her and let some light in. Maybe give her a little more space.”
Instead of hiding her, I started thinking about opening that door. Just a little bit. It’s not like she’s going to go anywhere. She’s really scared too.
I kept thinking about her, the little girl in me.
I wanted to help her, but I really didn’t know how. I was so used to hiding her, and pretending like everything was fine.
It was not fine and I couldn’t pretend anymore.
A few weeks later, I was sitting in church and the sermon was about how God heals in Mark 5. I was thinking about her, and following along in my Bible when the pastor read “Talitha Koum, and I say to you little girl – get up.”
My heart was pounding and I had chills from head to toe.
Jesus was telling her to get up. It was time for her to step into the light. She didn’t have to hide anymore.
She was nervous, but she got up.
As she stepped into the light, we both closed that door and took His hand.
We never looked back.
Taking the child’s hand, He said [tenderly] to her, “Talitha kum!”—which translated [from Aramaic] means, “Little girl, I say to you, get up!” Mark 5:41 AMP
April is #SAAM (Sexual Assault Awareness Month) and for thirty days I will share the lies I believed and the truth that I discovered in my healing from childhood sexual abuse. To start at the beginning and read the first post click here —> 30 Days of Truth – I am a Masterpiece