I was in a pit.
Discouragement blew in like a tornado and I started to sink.
It was a slow and steady decline.
There was so much noise in my mind, and everything felt intense.
Glancing at social media made me feel inadequate, insecure, and intimidated like I was in junior high again.
The darkness was so loud.
So many “too’s”. #metoo #themtoo #churchtoo
Words echoed all of the aches and pain.
Comments made me nauseous.
Hypersenstive and full of doubt, I felt like I was whining as I prayed that morning, “God, what is wrong with me? Help!”
As I stepped out of the shower, a song was playing on Pandora called “I Won’t Go Back” by William McDowell.
I wasn’t feeling it, but I was singing it. I was declaring it with him, “I won’t go back, I can’t go back, to the way it used to be. Before your presence came and changed me.”
And then the very next song that played was “Take Me To The King” by Tamela Mann and I was immediately reminded of how far God has brought me and how He has delivered me! That was the song of my heart years ago when I began my journey to heal from Childhood Sexual Abuse. It helped me to see Him as my King, and reminded me that I was His Daughter, His Princess.
How in the world did I find myself in the pit – again? Was I pushed or did I just slip in slowly? I honestly didn’t know the answer, but I knew without a doubt that the dark, hopeless pit was no longer my address.
I don’t live there anymore, and I won’t go back!
My Redeemer has delivered me. He has already brought me out.
I immediately started to praise Him for what He has delivered me from, for where He has brought me, and for all He has done for me.
My King is faithful.
Maybe like me, you have landed in the pit, again? The enemy likes to make the pit seem nice and cozy, as if it is our home sweet home. When the walls of that pit are staring back at you, look up and let the One who lifts your head bring you back with a grateful heart of praise – for He is our rock and our redeemer! That pit is no longer our address. We don’t live there anymore and we are not going back.
We have been redeemed. Let’s declare it together:
Praise the Lord, my soul;
all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
Praise the Lord, my soul,
and forget not all his benefits—
who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases,
who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion,
who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.
Psalm 103:1-5 NIV