My heart was pounding when I finally dialed the number. When the receptionist answered I told her I wanted to schedule an appointment to meet with one of the counselors. I was quickly disappointed when she informed me that the counselor I wanted to meet with was not taking new patients because her schedule was full.
The voices in my head immediately started shouting “See! This will never work! What are you doing? Just quit and hang up the phone now!”
I could not believe it! I had searched online for a while to find a Christian Counselor and I just knew she was the one because her bio page had this verse on it: Isaiah 61:3 “to give beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness that they might be called trees of righteousness…that He might be glorified.”
I was so disappointed as I wasn’t expecting to have to look for another counselor.
The receptionist was so patient with me and encouraged me to schedule with another counselor in the office, but I hesitated because I thought maybe I should wait until the counselor I wanted was taking new patients. She assured me that I could at least give the counselor who was available a try and if a spot opened they could transition me if that is still what I wanted to do.
I reluctantly scheduled the appointment and later noted in my journal, “I am sure God already knew this so I will just keep walking.”
I wanted it my way. I wanted control. I thought I knew what was best for me. I did my research and planned it all exactly how I wanted it.
But, God changed my plans. It completely took me by surprise but none of this was a surprise to Him. Instead of starting over, this was one of those moments where I sensed I should just take another baby step and trust Him.
His ways are not my ways.
What about you? When things don’t go as planned, do you tend to be shocked or disappointed? Do you continue to move forward? The surprises we experience are never a surprise to God. He already knows and His ways are best. Will you take a baby step and trust Him?
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. Isaiah 55:8