You know that feeling when you discover you have more healing to work through? When will it ever end? Will it ever end?
When I was editing my memoir last weekend, I came across a section where I shared how I felt about my body and how my counselor challenged me to think differently about my body. She encouraged me to see it and treat it as a temple.
That was seven years ago, and I still struggle with my body. I have always struggled with my body.
I spent my life avoiding mirrors, bathing suits, and changing in front of anyone.
Body issues are just one example of what a survivor has to work through.
The other day I listened to a random podcast.
It wasn’t random.
God is gracious in His timing, and as I listened to this podcast, it clicked, and I realized for the first time one of the reasons I struggle with my body. We talked about it before in counseling, but this time it clicked – there was a breakthrough.
I will give you a hint: Dopamine.
Sexual Abuse may not leave visible wounds, but there are layers and layers of physical, mental, and emotional destruction.
Thankfully, God is a God of Breakthrough!
The beginning of BREAKTHROUGH is awareness.
I am aware now, and I know God is going to deliver me. As I read through my memoir last weekend, I realized my story is evidence of God’s faithfulness to bring BREAKTHROUGH over and over again in the devastation and heartache.
I am still a work in progress, but he has healed me in so many ways. I will celebrate every breakthrough.
How has He delivered you, and what breakthrough can you celebrate today?
If you are feeling that knot in your stomach from realizing there is more work ahead, take a moment to celebrate the work you have accomplished and how far you have come!
*The podcast if you are interested is Waist Away with Chantel Ray, Episode 323.
*This song is my breakthrough jam: Breakthrough by Eddie James.