When I met my counselor for the first time, I told her I had a problem that I needed to fix as soon as possible. I also said I never wanted anyone to know and she assured me everything I shared with her was confidential. In that first session, I never told her my problem. I only told her about my symptoms. She knew I was falling apart, but I couldn’t bring myself to tell her why.
It took another session or two to find the courage to whisper the words, “I was sexually abused.”
If she had looked at me then and said, “Michelle, you are going to share your story with others, and talk about it and write about it,” I would have taken out my checkbook, paid her and left to never return. I had no idea then that it would be something I’d long to talk about and share in the future. I didn’t realize at that time what made my heart pound and filled my eyes with tears would become my passion.
I remember the first time I thought, maybe, just maybe I could help someone else. I had no idea what it would look like and some days it feels like I am still figuring it all out, but I know it’s my passion. It is not easy and I still struggle, but I know He is with me. Back when I drew this picture, it was hard for me to believe it.
You are chosen.
I was trying to understand it all, and sometimes the mean voice in my head would whisper, “You were chosen to be harmed.” It took a while for me to realize that was a LIE. Sometimes we have to acknowledge the lie is there so we can discover the truth. The truth is God can take our deepest pains and use us to make a difference in the lives of others.
You meant to hurt me, but God turned your evil into good to save the lives of many people, which is being done.Genesis 50:20 NCV
You are chosen. You may not have any idea of what he has chosen you to do and that is okay. For now, just know that you are chosen.
Before He made you in your mother’s womb, He chose you.
Before you were born, He set you apart for a special work.Jeremiah 1:5 NCV
Remember how awkward middle school was, especially in PE? The coach would pick two people and they would take turns picking people to be on their team. Do you remember the excitement and relief you felt when they pointed at you and picked you to be their team?
God has chosen you. He has picked you to do something special. That is why you are uniquely you.Tweet
What do you think He has chosen you to do? Ask Him. Seek Him, and go after your dreams.
Stay in your lane.
Sometimes I find myself watching others and thinking He must want me to do what she is doing or maybe I can be like her! No! It is so easy to get off track when we are focused on what others are doing instead of what He has called us to do. When we are trying to do what they are doing, how can we do what He created us to do?
You do you.
The other trap for me is when I think God can’t use me because someone else is already doing it, saying it, writing it or thinking of it. This kind of thinking will not only cause us to get off track, it will shut us down. Anytime we are tempted to look at others and think we have to do what they are doing or we don’t need to do anything because someone is already doing it – Stop.
We have to get back in our lane, keep our eyes on the prize, and remember the promise: You Are Chosen.