Truth 30: The Truth will set you free.Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free. John 8:32 NIV
It was almost 5 years ago when I whispered and shared the secret that I had kept inside for years: “I was sexually abused as a child.” But as I said those seven words, light spilled into the darkness and my healing journey began.
The secrets that thrived in the darkness had filled my mind with lies.
Lies about me. Lies about God. It was all twisted.
A big part of my healing journey was discovering the truth.
I had to face the truth of what happened to me. I had to peel back the mask and see the reality of my circumstances. The first book I read was “The Wounded Heart” by Dan Allender. It helped me to understand sexual abuse and the path of devastation that it leaves on the heart, soul and body.
I grew up believing that something was wrong with me. Maybe God made me this way? Maybe there was something on me that made this happen? Maybe it was my fault? Maybe I am just bad?
These lies filled me with shame and made me feel completely worthless.
The truth set me free.
I started to discover the truth about Jesus. He made me and He loves me. He truly loves me.
There was a huge void in my life when I was hiding the secrets and shame of childhood sexual abuse. I was in that shame-filled void all alone. I didn’t let anyone in, especially Jesus.
As the mask peeled back and the walls around my heart fell, I gave it all to Him. All of my brokenness. Every broken piece.
The memories, the flashbacks, and all of the pain.
He held me and comforted me. He collected every tear.
I am loved and no longer alone.
He also helped me to discover the truth about myself. I am not a piece of trash. I am His child, a princess. I didn’t believe it at first, and then one day He displayed His love for me in a beautiful pink sky. The color pink reminded me that I am a daughter of the KING, and I am adored, cherished, and worthy.
The truth set me free.
I grew up feeling green (shame), but the truth is I was pink all along. The truth is I am a Princess In Need of A King (PINK). Jesus is my King, and He has given me hope, courage and freedom.
I know what it is like to feel stuck and all alone in the prison of Childhood Sexual Abuse. I know the key to bust open that lock is His TRUTH.
It is a process and it takes time, but it is worth it.
You are worth it.
The truth will set you free.