I walked into the room holding my box, and I could not wait for her to see it. I opened it up and my counselor looked inside. I felt like she could see every word and know the story behind it, but she asked me to pick a few and talk about it. The session went really well, and I was proud of myself for making the box and sharing it with her.
The box was powerful because it housed all of my secrets. While I felt strong sharing them with her, by the time I got into my car, I was struggling… again.
My pounding heart ached while anxiety and panic permeated my entire being. The voices in my head were loudly arguing over how I was going to ruin everything by spilling these secrets.
I turned up the radio and they were introducing a song from the movie Sister Act 2. It was called His Eye is on The Sparrow by Lauren Hill & Tanya Blount. I had heard the song before.
But not like this.
I turned it up even louder. I hummed along at first, and mumbled a few words.
As I continued down the interstate in direct sunlight, I sang along at the top of my lungs: “I sing because I’m happy, I sing because I’m free. His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me….”
It was worship, and it was deep.
I heard the gentle whisper, “free at 40.”
My birthday was coming up, but free at 40? I had no idea what that meant, and since we were only days away that seemed impossible.
Then I heard it again, “free at 40.”
What would that even look like? How could I possibly be free at 40?
Free at 40. It didn’t seem possible, but I sure liked the sound of it.
Let me be clear, the Anointed One has set us free—not partially, but completely and wonderfully free! We must always cherish this truth and stubbornly refuse to go back into the bondage of our past. Galatians 5:1 (TPT)
This is post #27 in the Baby Steps series. To start at the beginning, click here.