Interview with Journey To Heal Ministries

My interview about childhood sexual abuse with Crystal Sutherland on the Journey to Heal Podcast felt vulnerable… but, in a good way.

We talked about the upcoming #hoperun2021 and the amazing and overwhelming support it provides for survivors.

When I attended the first run two years ago, I was amazed! After the race, I said, “I can’t believe this many people would show up for someone like me.”

For those who want to understand how to help survivors in your life, we talked about:

•ways to support survivors by understanding trauma (flashbacks, dissociation, panic/fear, etc.)

•what support feels and looks like

•what is helpful (and not helpful) to say (and ask)

•helpful responses to disclosure

For survivors, I shared what brought about the “little girl” in me finally walking into the light and experiencing healing. We talked about:

•helping the little child in you experience freedom

•it was not your fault – you are seen, believed, loved

•the heavy shame from abuse is not yours to carry

•hope, healing, and restoration are possible with Jesus!

I pray it blesses you. Sign up for the Durham team (Triangle Hope Runners) below:https://runsignup.com/…/JourneytoHealMinistriesHopeRun5…

Can’t join us? You can make a donation and make a difference by clicking here —–> https://runsignup.com/michelleviscuse

Thank you for your support!

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Breakthrough

               

You know that feeling when you discover you have more healing to work through? When will it ever end? Will it ever end?                 

When I was editing my memoir last weekend, I came across a section where I shared how I felt about my body and how my counselor challenged me to think differently about my body. She encouraged me to see it and treat it as a temple.

That was seven years ago, and I still struggle with my body. I have always struggled with my body.

I spent my life avoiding mirrors, bathing suits, and changing in front of anyone. 

Body issues are just one example of what a survivor has to work through.

The other day I listened to a random podcast.

It wasn’t random.

God is gracious in His timing, and as I listened to this podcast, it clicked, and I realized for the first time one of the reasons I struggle with my body. We talked about it before in counseling, but this time it clicked – there was a breakthrough.

I will give you a hint: Dopamine.

Sexual Abuse may not leave visible wounds, but there are layers and layers of physical, mental, and emotional destruction.

Thankfully, God is a God of Breakthrough!

The beginning of BREAKTHROUGH is awareness.

I am aware now, and I know God is going to deliver me. As I read through my memoir last weekend, I realized my story is evidence of God’s faithfulness to bring BREAKTHROUGH over and over again in the devastation and heartache.

I am still a work in progress, but he has healed me in so many ways. I will celebrate every breakthrough.

How has He delivered you, and what breakthrough can you celebrate today?

If you are feeling that knot in your stomach from realizing there is more work ahead, take a moment to celebrate the work you have accomplished and how far you have come!

*The podcast if you are interested is Waist Away with Chantel Ray, Episode 323.

*This song is my breakthrough jam: Breakthrough by Eddie James.

This is why I wait upon you, expecting your breakthrough, for your word brings me hope. Psalm 130:5 TPT

Lesson 3: Money isn’t everything. (People are thirsty.)

Last year, we worked on some projects around the house. The most expensive project was to get our home painted. After getting several estimates, we picked the company and scheduled the job. 

We’ve had our house painted twice before, and usually they finish completely in 1-2 days. So, I made sure to take a before picture because I expected it to be done quickly. 

Only, it wasn’t going as planned.

They started late, and instead of having an entire crew show up, we had two people show up. It was a husband and wife team, and I will call them Jake and Joanna (not their real names). On the first day, they power-washed the house, and on the next day, they started replacing the boards and painting. 

Day after day, they backed into our driveway, emptied their van of supplies, and started working while his radio blasted music from the ’70s and ’80s. After an entire week, we were concerned and a bit frustrated, mostly because we had no idea it would take this long. One day they didn’t get to come because of car trouble and some of the other days it rained. 

Have you experienced similar frustrations regarding a big project or expense?

After a few days, I came home around lunchtime, and they were sitting in their van to escape the heat. I lifted my hand to wave and headed to the front door. Right before I went in, I sensed that still small voice saying, “Bring water to them.” 

WHAT? 

Instead of getting water and bringing it to them, I turned around and went to the van, and asked if they wanted any cold water. He said, “No, ma’am, that’s ok.” 

So, I asked again, “Are you sure?  I have plenty of cold drinks inside.”  She shyly mentioned if I could bring some water, that would be great. I went inside and grabbed cold water bottles, orangeades, tea and got as much as I could carry out to them. 

He smiled big and said thank you.

My husband heard from the paint company owner, and he explained why it was taking so long. They were expecting a crew, but it didn’t work out. They should finish soon. His explanation seemed to satisfy us.   

Later that evening, as the painters cleaned up, my husband and I went outside to look around at the progress.  

Jake looked up at my husband and said, “Your wife saved us today!”

We both looked puzzled as he went on to explain, “Today was the hottest day, and at lunch, we realized we forgot our cooler with all of our drinks in it, and we were really thirsty. But, your wife brought us cold drinks. We loved that tea!” 

Thirst.

Do you know that moment when you feel tiny? If I could have fallen to my knees right then, I would’ve.  But instead, I went inside and grabbed more cold drinks for them to hydrate on the way home. 

God, forgive me. I was so worried about money and getting the job done quickly. I lost sight that there may be a purpose in the inconvenience.  

God whispered, “Bring water to them.” 

What if I missed it? What If my frustrations got the best of me?

God forgive me. It is just money, and people are thirsty. I honestly don’t care how the house looks. Please help me love them and love them well. 

The next morning, the wife knocked on the door and said, “Jake brought something for you – it is on the porch.” 

I went to look, and it was a beautiful plant in a watering can that he had painted. He told my husband that his mom had passed away last year, and this plant was a piece of hers.

I was so moved by it. I loved it, and it was such a sweet gesture.   

For the next several days, I waited to hear their van back into our driveway. I made them a casserole for breakfast and picked up cold sweet teas for them. I brought them drinks and made them brownies. 

On their last day here, we wrote them a Thank You card with a tip inside along with this verse: 

“The Lord bless you
and keep you;
the Lord make his face shine on you
and be gracious to you;
the Lord turn his face toward you
and give you peace.”
Numbers 6:24-26 NIV
 

The Blessing

I miss the sound of their truck backing into our driveway. I miss that music blasting into my window, and I love my freshly painted home. I miss Jake and Joanna, and I’ve even tried to google them.  

Thankfully, I have their beautiful plant to remind me of one of my favorite lessons from 2020:  Money isn’t everything (People are thirsty).

For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in. Matthew 25:35 NIV

Have you experienced a time where that still small voice whispered and you moved? What did you learn? I’d love to hear your story!

I am sharing the lessons I learned from 2020 that I am bringing into 2021. You can click on the links below to read:
Lesson 1: The sky is not falling. (Don’t be afraid.)
Lesson 2: Go for it! (You have nothing to lose.)