I have been praying big prayers, with a heart full of doubt. I have been asking Him for the impossible, and having merely a faint hope that He will answer. I have repeated daily, “Lord, if it’s your will, I pray…” somewhat out of habit with a side dish of duty, but with very little faith. These are specific prayers that He has led me to pray. When I first started praying them, there was fresh hope with my eyes on Him. My eyes shifted to the left and the right and as the days turned into weeks that fresh hope started to fade.