Baby Steps:  Jesus said, “Little Girl, Get Up.” 

I was connecting with the little girl (LG) inside of me. I would draw and write with colored pencils. I bought coloring books with scripture and would focus on the words and staying in the lines with bright markers.  Dancing at Zumba reminded me of her and all of the years of dance.  Music would […]

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I thought it was me.

I thought it was me.  Maybe there was something wrong with me that caused all of this. Was there a sign on my forehead that said “Abuse Me”? Maybe something was wrong with my body, or maybe I smiled wrong or was too nice? Was it my clothes? What was wrong with me? These thoughts […]

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30 Days of Truth: Remain in my love.

Truth 27: Remain in my love. As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. John 15:9 NIV  I felt like there were two of us. Me and the wounded little girl inside of me. Most of the time she was very quiet, unless she was terrified, paranoid, […]

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How Great Thou Art

I was a hot mess in church today. It’s been a while. It used to happen almost every Sunday. I would stand there during worship and just move my lips to the words and sob. I was hardly able to utter a sound because my heart was fragile. It didn’t take much to send me […]

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Washed White As Snow

I sat at my desk by the window, and opened my laptop.  Instead of typing anything, I just stared at the blank page and the blanket of snow outside.  The snowflakes were dancing to the song “Like An Avalanche” by Hillsong.  With a single candle burning, I paused in that moment to Thank Him for His […]

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Emmanuel – God With Us

The sweet scent of cinnamon and sugar mixed with Christmas music filled the kitchen. I was joyfully singing along to “Santa Claus is Coming to Town” by the window. Just as I was cracking the egg, my voice cracked, and my heart broke as tears spilled into sink.     I stood there peeling egg after […]

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A Daughter’s Dream, A Mother’s Prayer

Something changed in me the day I stood in the sterile cold surroundings of the trauma unit with a bright light shining on my daughter.  To be honest, something changed in all of us. Trauma changes things, good and bad. It’s ripple effects are far-reaching. My heart cried wordless groans for nearly two hours, the […]

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It was not my fault (For those struggling with blame and shame.)

Recently I bought my daughter a little red bag to use as a makeup bag in the future. This morning when I saw the bag, I thought it could serve another purpose. I could fill it with feminine products for her so she will have what she needs when the time comes. I wanted to make sure she was ready […]

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Jesus loves the little girl

There is a little girl in all of us.  Maybe she’s running through a field of sunflowers, or maybe she’s tucked quietly away in a small dark closet.  Wherever she is, Jesus loves the little girl in each of us. Today you get to hear from her, the little girl inside of me, as she […]

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