Baby Steps: He Gives Me Rest

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Everything around me feels unsteady and raw.

Lately, I have experienced quite a few disappointments. I am not sure if I am noticing them more, or simply feeling the hurt more but I am completely aware of being let down. In all of the disappointments – He has shown me HIS FAITHFULNESS. People will disappoint, life will disappoint, but He is faithful.  

He remains when all else fails.  

The place I went to yesterday in my counseling session was filled with despair, and yet He was my ROCK and I held on for dear life.  It was as if He said to me, “These things that you think are important to you and big to you – keep them in perspective.  They can’t give you what I am able to give you…I am the only gas that will fill your tank.”

So I pulled into His station, and I was filled:     Psalm 119:33-40

Teach me, Lord, the way of your decrees,
that I may follow it to the end.
Give me understanding, so that I may keep your law
and obey it with all my heart.
Direct me in the path of your commands,
for there I find delight.
Turn my heart toward your statutes
and not toward selfish gain.
Turn my eyes away from worthless things;
preserve my life according to your word.
Fulfill your promise to your servant,
so that you may be feared.
Take away the disgrace I dread,
for your laws are good.
How I long for your precepts!
In your righteousness preserve my life. 

And today when I slowed down to fill up, I heard, “Rest in Me. Balance. I will tell you where to go and when to step. You are so bent on old patterns it may be hard to even see at first. Be aware of it and look for it. Before you take one step, pause… is it me taking you there or are you ahead of me?  You have given it all to me now.  All of it.  You are infused with my light. Walk to my beat. Slow down and walk in step with me.”

One step at a time.  

“Come to me, all you who are tired and are carrying heavy loads. I will give you rest.  Become my servants and learn from me. I am gentle and free of pride. You will find rest for your souls. Serving me is easy, and my load is light.” Matthew 11:28-30 NIVR

This is post #18 in the Baby Steps series.  To start at the beginning, click here.

Whispers of Rest

“It’s about finding your spark again. To be the beloved. Just as you are.” ~ Bonnie Gray 

I was bone-tired and that one phrase “finding your spark again” jumped off of the page.

Everything felt heavy, and anxiety was rearing it’s ugly head. Again.

What happened?

I lost my spark.

And then, I started reading Whispers of Rest by Bonnie Gray.

“Whispers of Rest is a life-giving, forty-day devotional detox for your soul, far from the noise and demands of everyday life – refreshing your spirit with simple, powerful affirmations of God’s love, paired with intimate reflection questions and easy-to-enjoy practical challenges and tips.” ~ Bonnie Gray

Each day, I am able to spend a few minutes focusing on being still, and being loved. The challenges are fun and allow me to look for His beauty and experience His peace.

Here’s just one example:

After an already stressful day, we were in between soccer practices and decided to stop at a park. I sat in the car waiting, zoning out on social media. It did not refresh me or bring me peace. It rarely does.

I happened to look up and spotted a rose garden.  I jumped out of the car with my phone and headed towards the beautiful display of color.  I walked around quietly taking pictures of the flowers and watching the light paint the blooms bright. The sun started to set just as I was leaving. The challenge that day was to spend ten minutes in nature and by the time we left the park, I was smiling. Joy returned.

That was just one day.

This book is filled with 40 beautiful days of refreshment. It has helped me to be intentional to pause and experience His love. I’m paying attention to His beauty and His comfort. I’m being filled.

I’m getting my spark back! 

Maybe like me, you’ve hit a wall of sorts and you’ve lost your spark?  Are you longing to hear His whispers of rest? Maybe you need something that helps you to get quiet and still enough to listen? Whispers of Rest by Bonnie Gray is just what you need.  Join us?

Visit www.whispersofrest.com for more information and be sure to check out the Book Club starting June 5th!

It’s time to get your spark back!

Draw near to God and He will draw near to you.  James 4:8

Broken, as is.

This post is part of the  “Finding Spiritual Whitespace Blog Tour” which I am a part of, along with a group of soulful, journeying kindreds. To learn more and join us, CLICK HERE!  The writing prompt today is: to share a special Bible verse currently touching your heart with rest and comfort?

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Psalm 145:18 The Lord is near to all who call on Him, who call on Him in truth.

“As is.”  Two of my favorite words in the book “Finding Spiritual Whitespace”, and every time I read it I feel like I am taking a deep breath of fresh air in a smoky room, especially on page 70:

There is a place here and now that Jesus has been preparing for the little girl in me.  That place is my heart, where Jesus has been doing deep, healing work – to accept her as she is.  To let her know there is a place in this world for her.

Because Jesus understands her.

Because Jesus loves her.  As is.

As is….

yes, but what about______?

As is….

Page 145:  Jesus is the companion with the courage to walk with us in the quiet…  He will meet you in a way that lets you know He is near you.  He will take your hand in His.

Sometimes, this quiet can be a lonely place.  It can be a place where isolation and desperation wait in the shadows.  The walls are dark.  The door is boarded up without a door knob.  Not many will enter.

This quiet is like a dark tunnel of memories that will lead to the hopeful bright light and plush beauty.

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With each step into the dark tunnel,  I stop..  I hesitate.

My shoulders cringe forward, and I sink.  My breathing slows and my heart literally pounds in my chest.  I step again.  My eyes are closed.  Jesus is with me.  He has my hand and he leans in to remind me he is near.  My rigid stance softens as He whispers “truth”.

Truth, as is, with pain.

Truth, as is, with fear.

Truth, as is, with shame.

Locking up this part of me separates Jesus from the part of me that needs Him most.

The broken me, as is.

Psalm 145:18 The Lord is near to all who call on Him, who call on Him in truth.

21 Days of Rest: Finding Spiritual Whitespace