Baby Steps: He will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten.

It’s fitting that I would write the final post in this Baby Steps series on Thanksgiving Day.  I had originally planned to write about the Names of God for 31 days, and I had it all planned out. But, at the last-minute I kept hearing Baby Steps. Baby Steps? Really? Even though I truly did […]

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Baby Steps: God has set me free.

May 9, 2013  It was the day before my 40th birthday.  I woke up at 4am and started to frantically type on my phone what I would say to my abuser if given the chance.  It was 291 words and it started with, “You sexually abused me and I am not keeping the secret anymore.” […]

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Baby Steps: He delights in every step.

I planned to meet with someone to share my story with her.  At this point, I had only shared with my counselor, my husband, and a few friends. She was coming over to visit and both my husband and I felt like she needed to know.   We were both stopped in a parking lot […]

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Baby Steps:  Jesus said, “Little Girl, Get Up.” 

I was connecting with the little girl (LG) inside of me. I would draw and write with colored pencils. I bought coloring books with scripture and would focus on the words and staying in the lines with bright markers.  Dancing at Zumba reminded me of her and all of the years of dance.  Music would […]

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Baby Steps: He has set us free.

I walked into the room holding my box, and I could not wait for her to see it. I opened it up and my counselor looked inside.  I felt like she could see every word and know the story behind it, but she asked me to pick a few and talk about it.  The session […]

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Baby Steps: His light breaks my chains.

Something really big happened in me during that facedown laid flat prayer time.  He lifted me and He gave me a voice, but He also filled me to the top with courage, boldness and passion. Something shifted inside of me.  In my group therapy session, she gave us each a small box, magazines, scissors and […]

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Baby Steps: He lifted me.

It was my hardest counseling session so far because I said the hard stuff. I slowly put words together to describe the darkness. I sat there and trembled like a child in tears and whispered about the awful sights, smells, and sounds. I felt a sensory overload as all that had been bottled up for […]

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Baby Steps: He fills me with praise.

March 18, 2013 My counselor invited me to join a small group of women for eight sessions to work on building shame resiliency in our lives. It was based on the curriculum “Connections” by Brené Brown and her book, “I Thought It Was Just Me (but it isn’t).”  I was extremely nervous about being in […]

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Baby Steps: He crowns me with unfailing love and compassion.

March 13, 2013 We were discussing God’s love in Sunday School, and one of the ladies gave us all adorable bookmarks.  The bookmark I received was called “Abundance”.  I liked it but I really wanted the “Hope” bookmark which showed a girl looking in the mirror and not seeing her true self.  I went online […]

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